A Confession
0:00 There's something I need to confess to, uh, everybody in my audience, and it's something that I think has been on my mind for a very long time now. Um, not without reason, of course. I think for many years on this channel I've portrayed myself as somebody who I'm fundamentally not, um, and I think that's caused friction. I think it's caused a lot of issues—issues concerning trust, concerning my reliability as a source of information. And I think these are legitimate issues that I, I can no longer deal with, and it, I think it really all stems from the fact that I'm just not amazing [Music]. I'm not Mr. Amazing. In fact, I
1:01 I think I'm downright unimpressive. I'm really a fraud [Music]. And in this way, I think it, it really isn't right of me to keep pretending like I am something I'm not—amazing, that is. And it's, it's my inability to be amazing, to amaze anyone, that leads me to believe that I can no longer keep the charade going. It's, it's not something I can do to any of you any longer. I, I no longer will allow myself to put all, almost 300,000 of you through this sham production that I've created. It's for this reason that I, unfortunately, do have to shut this channel down [Music].
Just kidding, of course. I'm not shutting this channel down. Uh, that some people might want me to, I'm not going to. But I do think there are
2:01 legitimate issues, and it's part of the reason I've been offline—just not from YouTube, but from all social media in general, uh, these past few months. I'm, of course, a university student. I'm in my dorm right now, but, uh, I needed this time, and I, I need more time, as a matter of fact, to reflect on a lot of things, because I don't really know what I want to do with this channel. I don't know where the future really is. I don't really know what I even want at this point in time, so I don't know. Uh, I'm not shutting it down. Of course not. I, I want to keep making videos. It's just a matter of figuring out how I can do that in the best possible way, really. I'd say the most authentic way, because, you know, all jokes aside, I, I have been inauthentic many a time, and I, I find that to be, uh, very difficult for me personally. So figuring out how to do that
3:01 is, is where I'm at right now, and, uh, unfortunately, that means a big lull in production. Um, be that as it may, uh, I just recorded this last minute at the, uh, request of one of my fans. So, uh, I actually gotta go do work. So here's until three or four months from now when I actually get to post something legitimate. Uh, this is Mr. Amazing. Thanks for watching [Music].
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